My Philosophies

For some reasons I can't sleep tonight. So I thought I'd rather get up and do something constructive rather than waste time. My next posts are going to be about my philosophies. Why? Because, everyone has his own codes or philosophies that he lives by. There are plenty in my head right now. I just want a documentation. So that's what I'm going to do. I'm so excited!

Secret Heart

A nice quote I read in the beginning of a french movie 'oui,mais...' I'd like to share it with you:


After creating the universe, the gods wondered
where to hide the truth?
On the highest peak?
At the bottom of the sea?
On the dark side of the moon?
 Finally they decided
 " In the heart of a man
 He will look everywhere, and never suspecting it to be deep within him."

- Old Hindu Legend-

Suggestions anyone?

I had no idea anyone would ever read my blogs.... perhaps few people did so accidentally?? Anyway, it meant so much to me when last night, a blogger from USA commented on my previous blog,' low self confidence'.

I ask for your suggestions for topics u want me to write about. I feel like there's so much I want to tell you everyday. I want to become a successful blogger. There's a blog site which particularly inspired me.. you may check it out.  lelove| bloglovin in english :)  I'm a huge fan of that site. I simply adore it.

Low self confidence

Lately I'm being told over and over again, that I don't have much respect for myself or confidence on myself. And I feel like they are right. I just can't help it. But deep inside I know I have lots of potentials. And I just have started to invent them. I just wish I had some sort of passion to keep me going . I don't know if I'm making any sense but I think that's what I lack. Passion , real interest for doing something thoroughly. I lose interest so easily. For example, I'm reading this book, 'the lost world' and I can't wait to finish it! Not because I find it amazing or breathe taking, but just because I want to finish reading it and say to myself, 'yes I have finished it!'

 It's like reading a book without any passion. Am  I making any sense? I hope so... I have to find a breakthrough. And very soon.

running in a circle

'i woke up one morning, and said to myself,'this IS the beginning of all happiness! this is the just the starting so ofcourse there will be more! ... but that didn't happen.... it was not the beginning... it was just happiness, just a moment of happiness, right there.'

i quoted the above dialogue from a famous movie called 'The Hours'. I can somehow relate to it.

I made a random hypothesis. I'd like to know any kind of arguments (if anyone's reading my blogs! lol)

Well from my experience i've learnt that we are all running in a circle. I can point out a number of guys who to wants to be with me, but I want to be with someone else... but it's not meant to be. That guy would never get the girl he dreams of...and so on so on. Ofcourse there are exceptions. Like two people in love even get to marry each other. We write love stories about them haha. But how many love stories are successful. Aren't the best of music or novel written full of heartbroken stories?

Songs without words

Recently i've been listening to Arabic music. my top favorites are Nancy Ajram and  Elissa. I don't understand Arabic at all. But I have to confess something. Its only because of you, I love arabic. The songs soothe my ears. I don't need to know the words, I can feel what they are singing about. I think I'm gonna name my daughter Elissa. haha. just a random thought.

Life is Alright.

I wish I had spent less time on Facebook and more time on writing my blogs. Because I certainly enjoy doing the later more. But I suppose, when it comes to do something creative, my demons take over my mind. Anyway, I am here now so it's better not to waste time regretting. My life is passing by so fast. I want to make the best of it. I've started taking French lessons. I hope I'll be able to finish my diploma of 1 year.
My scores in tests are dropping. I feel frustrating at times. Plus I'm having personal problems with my friends. Well I used to think they're my friends. But now I'm the center of the circle and my 'friends' are at a distance, same distance apart from my vulnerable self. Uh., I know I sound so depressed. But I'm not so depressed as I sound. Life is good at times. Especially now, when it's raining!