mind against heart

I think the hardest part of letting go of someone is to try desperately to hold him or her back, knowing you're too weak without them. Deep inside you know that 'someone' will not come back to you, but still you're holding him/her back in name of letting go. you deceive yourself by saying, 'I'd just keep his favorite songs in my cellphone,it's not like i'm keeping their pictures anymore.' And although you've gone 3 or 4 months without talking/texting that 'someone special' you know you'd give in easily if he/she calls/texts you back. people will tell you he/she didn't deserve you, so move on, eventually you will, but through a painfull process. you would wonder if the other person is feeling the same, a part of you telling you 'yes we loved each other with the same intensity didn't we?' another part would tell you' no way, don't you remember what he/she did to you?' and so on, so on.
I call myself a warrior in a battle of heart against mind. I'm fighting against my heart because, my heart is weak and fragile. but my mind is strong and rational. I love love but it has lost its way of finding me.

taj writes

Everything for the first time, The first time for everything. I know I'm choosing my words carefully. But the truth is I'm writing this blog for myself only. Sometimes I feel like I have too many thoughts crowded in my head, desperate to organize, take in written form. So writing this blog might help me to do so. I want to thank my friend Eric especially, who created this page for me ( apparently i'm too dumb to make my own!).